ESCAPISM

"DUP DAP DUP DAP" ........ "DUP DUP DUP"....... i almost can hear the sounds of my heart beat with my very own ears... there's some kind of volcano erupting in my heart... its feel so cold instead of burning hot... my body sweating and my hand shaking... my throat taste salty and so dry... my feet feel so numb... i don't know either its caused by the cold air vomited from my air-conditioner or my body's heat totally went off somewhere else... its not even clear to me either this shaking come from my empty stomach or also as an outcome of my inner self... but it might probably cause by the hurricane inside my head... a huge blow can be felt running through my neck to my heart... on the way down to heart the strong wind drag every single things that accumulate in my life... this huge spinning really shake my spirit and confident... all today's talk and thought and dream and vision and memories really caused a big hurricane... whatever it is i will stand still... as coconut tree... to the left, to the right, to the front and to the back... but my root will deep hanging to the pieces of sands, gravels, soils and dirt... however strong the wind is but i will never be uprooted! i refuse to surrender!!!