5W1H

I keep six honest serving-men
(They taught me all I knew);
Their names are What and Why and When
And How and Where and Who

by Rudyard Kipling (1902).

If life is a book or journal... Then basic journalism can be a good analogy... Even if life is an investigation then the principles are still the same which is 5W1H...
They are: 1. What
2.Who
3.When
4.Where
5.Why
6.How
In my opinion, the arrangement of W n H can be in any sequences.
For a journal or writing to be acceptable or rated as complete, these basic questions must be answered before any extra elaboration been included.
If life is a journal then all these basic questions should be answered before any extra colours or spices been added.
I'm not going to explain on each of the basic question but would like to add a different perspective concerning the 'H'. The only 'H' among the five 'W'.
For me, when all 'W' had been answered in life, then the 'H' will be the determinant for life journal to be arranged and polished splendidly.
The finding for all the 'W' answers might take some big portion of a person life and a draft of life journal will be formed during the finding of the 'W' answers.
When all the 'W' were answered and a quite complete draft are formed then the editing and finalising work started by exploitation of the one 'H'.
For me, it is often individual at maturity level will dare to say that they have a complete draft of a life journal.
So, I always b careful not to claim or be overconfident whenever I might find a possible answer to any 'W' because I'm afraid of false facts.
Furthermore, I am still very green in the world, the things that I know all this while might only be information per see and not real facts or knowledge.
In other to minimise the risk, I'm avoiding the generalisation of '5W1' for the whole journal of life. I do this by dividing the journal of life into sub-topic or chapters and tackle each topic by using the '5W1H' principles.
By going into topics, I can explore in details each life issues using '5W1H'. This also will save me from venturing wildly into life topics that are yet suitable for me to handle. Although I had mixed around with all sort of people at various age level, but still I don't consider myself authoritative enough to discussed certain issues of higher maturity stages.
Quite often we meet young adult who is ambitious enough to explore all life issues altogether at the same time without been aware of their limitation thus become confuse and their judgement clouded.
Life is a process, a journey and discoveries so face it with open eyes... Eyes that see not only looking...
May God show me the way...

Light at tragic moment

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley

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Words From my Sifu

"Our students now had become biological robot with the internet, radio and television as their heart... If all these stop then they will die"
Student nowadays had ignored the need to focus on basic principle. Most teachers also failed to embed strong basic into their student. Industry personal credited certificate with outstanding grade. The policy makers too busy installing flashy component to the student and system without proper attention on developing a strong basic component. In general, people celebrate more on latest technology, high end innovation, awesome additional skills and groovy personality which in fact copied from other countries or system. The effort to create, develop and build strong basic knowledge are ignored since the basic component won't create a good popular image and very slow to fruit. The results? We have create a generation of youngsters with artificial knowledge and ability. They only have good cover but weak content. They can talk and discuss splendidly over the table but become total blank when tested to tackle the real problems. The lack the abilities to handle twisted facts and mechanism. They know how to operate million dollars equipment but fail to interpret the concept within. They are able to obtain results but fail to explain the science behind it. Once all this machine stop they will stand there in silence. They cannot comprehend the real knowledge which lies in the basic mechanism n concept. Once the express information pool like the internet stop... These generation will die! This country will collapse! because we are just a bunch of biological robot and not knowledgeable nation!
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Circa Politic Pasca 2008

1. sebuah radio melaporkan bahawa SPR akan memperkenalkan method baru melalui parti-parti politik untuk mendaftarkan para pengundi muda yang belum berdaftar dan jumlahnya amatlah ramai.

2. laporan itu juga menyebut kadar pendaftaran pemilih bagi bukan melayu adalah tinggi berbanding pemilih melayu selepas pilihanraya 2008.

3. pelbagai telahan boleh dibuat namun perkara pertama yang terlintas di fikiran saya adalah "anak melayu sudah muak dengan politik melayu".

4.bukan saya bermaksud anak muda melayu tidak patriotik atau tidak menyayangi bangsa dan negaranya namun saya berpendapat anak muda melayu sudah tidak berminat dengan cara pemimpin melayu berpolitik yang kelihatannya hanya menguntungkan sekelompok pihak tertentu.

5.pertelagahan antara pemimpin melayu secara terbuka juga membuatkan anak melayu menjadi keliru dan sangsi tentang keutamaan para pemimpin melayu. sikap berpolitik secara berlebihan tanpa tanda-tanda sanggup berkompromi dalam isu-isu kepentingan bersama melayu membuatkan kepercayaan generasi muda semakin terhakis.

6. selain itu, keakraban dan kesediaan para pemmpin bukan melayu dari pelbagai latar politik berbeza yang lantang secara bersama dalam memperjuangkan nasib mereka membuatkan anak melayu memikirkan pemimpin kita telah lalai dan leka dalam membela mereka dan faktor kesatuan pemimpin bukan melayu ini jugalah barangkali menjadi kunci kepada peningkatan pendaftaran pemilih baru bukan melayu.

7. tahun 2008 menyaksikan kebangkitan suatu mentaliti baru di kalangan rakyat malaysia yang menunjukkan terdapat keterbukaan dan peluang baru untuk bukan melayu. atas dasar ini beberapa rencana baru bukan melayu kelihatan mula terbentuk maka berlumba-lumbalah pemimpin bukan melayu ingin menjadi jaguh.

8. segelintir pemimpin bukan melayu juga ingin menangguk momentum kesedaran bukan melayu sehingga mengorbankan beberapa dogma pemikiran melayu yang selama ini teguh dipertahankan.

9. natijahnya semua pemimpin melayu menjadi bimbang dan ingin memenangi sokongan bukan melayu lantas mencantas kepentingan melayu. rentetan itu jugalah mula kedengaran gesaan supaya agenda melayu diberi perhatian. maka bermulalah pula era pemimpin melayu ingin menunjukkan mereka adalah jaguh melayu sedangkan tiada pemimpin bukan melayu yang bersama melaungkan hak dan kepentingan melayu.

10. apa akhirnya episod survival melayu?

* ini adalah pandangan peribadi dan saya tidak mewakili mana-mana orang lain kecuali diri saya yang dangkal.

Sebatang Rokok D Dinihari

Embun berkabus di awangan malam... Lantas berlabuh di dedaunan lalang... Deruman enjin memecah kesunyian malam... Hilai sorak bersahutan... Kerlipan neon berkerdipan di kejauhan... Bermacam ragam berderetan di ruangan mata... Rencam berkecamuk menikam jiwa... Mata yg kepenatan masih degil menyeka lambaian lena... Satu persatu anganku berlalu... Namun tiada satupun berkesudahan... Satu persatu cebisan impian menari namun tiada hujungnya... Semuanya bersesakan di dalam benak yang kian sempit ditemani runtuhan mimpi silam... Semua idea yg bercambah tercantas sendiri sebelum sempat bertunas... Bunga-bunga optimism yang lahirnya dari harapan pantas saja dipasung mati oleh dahan-dahan optimism yang asalnya kejatuhan silam... Keyakinan yg terbina ranap oleh paranoia nukilan syaitan bertopeng manusia... Yang tinggal? Aku dan kesunyian... Ditemani sebatang rokok yang asapnya tipis dan terpadam sebelum puas aku menyedutnya... Itulah resam duniawi... Tiada abadi... Tiada pasti... Kita menanti... Sebelum pergi... Namun buat kesekian kali... aku merayu lagi... Datanglah mimpi... !
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Sleepless nite

Yet again... A nite had ceased n dawn knocking... The stars hiding behind the clouds... The sounds of train, cars, motorcycle and all sorts of vehicles buzzing and zooming through the night... The light blinking against the dark moonless sky... But me? Laying still looking to the unmoved walls of my room... Cold stink my bone... Loneliness creep on my bed... Tiredness squeezed my muscles... My brain exhausted n running at minimum speed to keep alive... My blood seems unaffected by my cold skin and keep running wild in my warm veins... Rushing through various channel but yet again make a turn through my heart... This heart never stop pumping in and out till the blood frozen... However this particular heart seems to be jolting n shocked... And I'm sure that the blood have nothing to do with it... Its caused by sumthing else... The 'heart' caused it... This 'heart' have been disturbed by several scenes flashing through my kodak head like a series of blur movie. Nothing could be seen or hear clearly but give a sense to the 'heart'... Sense of ambiguity, scare, worry, hopeless... Yeah it create a wave of 'DESPAIR'... God save me...
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ESCAPISM

"DUP DAP DUP DAP" ........ "DUP DUP DUP"....... i almost can hear the sounds of my heart beat with my very own ears... there's some kind of volcano erupting in my heart... its feel so cold instead of burning hot... my body sweating and my hand shaking... my throat taste salty and so dry... my feet feel so numb... i don't know either its caused by the cold air vomited from my air-conditioner or my body's heat totally went off somewhere else... its not even clear to me either this shaking come from my empty stomach or also as an outcome of my inner self... but it might probably cause by the hurricane inside my head... a huge blow can be felt running through my neck to my heart... on the way down to heart the strong wind drag every single things that accumulate in my life... this huge spinning really shake my spirit and confident... all today's talk and thought and dream and vision and memories really caused a big hurricane... whatever it is i will stand still... as coconut tree... to the left, to the right, to the front and to the back... but my root will deep hanging to the pieces of sands, gravels, soils and dirt... however strong the wind is but i will never be uprooted! i refuse to surrender!!!

Outstanding Academic Track Record ??? pfftt!!!

i received a news by my supervisor telling me that i cannot extended my studies once the allocated time were finished. next semester going to be my fifth semester of my doctoral degree study and i am suppose to finish in 2011. The normal allocated time for doctoral studies is from two to five years in my institution however the so called standard period is three years. Even the study leaves given to us were three years. I just received the news that my contract might be terminated if i exceeded the three years normal period of doing PhD in the name of good academic track record. The state of my study currently is not in good shape since my progress had been disturbed by my obligation toward my working contract. At one stage, my research was totally shut down for a period of several months and because of that a lot of experiments need to be repeated. The worse is that i almost get 'busted' because my grade was severely affected. However, my working burden have been lifted up from last semester and i can focus on my study but the time required to re-warm my momentum and to make amendments to my research is not an instant job. I dare to say that i need to re-start from zero in term of my research. My progress just begin to be on track back when i received the news that i might not be able to furlong my contract if i do not finish my study in one more year. How on earth can i do a PhD in one year... my days ahead looks gloomy... but i cannot run away from this... at this moment, my study and job seems to be a trap that going to waste away several years of my life instead of becoming a golden opportunity once. i cannot back off now since there are contracts between me and my institution... i almost give up now and holding dearly to my last spirit not to surrender... i never regret anything in my full of challenges life before and i hope i wont regret this also... what i know now is that i need to keep moving forward and wag these gloomy days with my head high... if die i must then die i will... 'if i am destine to be a winner then i will craft my own winning trophy, if i am destine to be a loser then i will dig my own grave'... i refuse to let other people's hands to decide on my life... i will keep fighting! even there is no light can be seen now at the end of these dark tunnel, i will not give myself a turning back path... there is only one path for me... succeed or die trying!

The 'Big Work' @ 'Bekwoh'

'Bekwoh' is a Kelantese word referring to celebration or ceremony normally wedding celebration... some Kelantanese believe the word 'Bekwoh' originated from English Language which is 'Big Work'. in other state of Malaysia, wedding celebration normally called 'Kenduri Kahwin'. my sister's wedding was conducted on Saturday, 12th June 2010. The "akad nikah' ceremony was done on Friday, 11th of June 2010. a day before the 'akad nikah', 'majlis solat sunat hajat' was carried out which is on Thursday, 10th of June 2010. the groom's family also arrived in kelantan from Kuala Lumpur on Thursday and having their lunch at the bride house since the stayed at a nearby guest house. so the cooking and all the works started on Wednesday night, 9th of June 2010 and running at full speed on Thursday morning, 10th of June 2010. Starting from that Thursday morning until the midnight of 12th June 2010, the 'kenduri' @ 'bekwoh' were carried out for 3 days and 3 nights. cooking, washing, talking, preparing etc were conducted with a very happy mood... those were the most tiring period of my life... however, once everything settled and i saw the wide smiles on all the faces in my house, i felt occupied and satisfied... Dad, mum, grannies, sis, aunties, uncles,neighbors and everybody chattering in a very warm mood after the 'bekwoh' really wipe out all the pain and suffering in me... even though there are a lot of untold stories on my part, i still feel happy and proud... nobody thank me so far hehehe but its ok bcoz i know myself... most of the times those who we hate appreciate us more than those who we love... those who we forget might remember us more than those who we remember... its unfair? no it is the justice of God... we alwiz got what we deserve, however in the way God want it to be bcoz only God is the true master of the Universe... God is the owner and master of the Law of Nature... that what we call 'SUNNATULLAH'! wallahua'lam.

... MASA ...

DEMI MASA SESUNGGUHNYA MANUSIA DALAM KERUGIAN...

masa...
suatu ciptaan...
ada tetapi di mana?...
hilang tetapi kemana?...

masa...
dirasai dan dilupai...
disyukuri dan dikufuri...
diingati dan dilupai...

masa...
datang dan pergi...
membawa bersama seribu erti...
menyimpan bersama sejuta mimpi...

dan demi masa...
aku masih terjaga...
sehingga ajalku tiba...

dan demi masa...
penyimpan segala rahsia...
kisah dan sejarahnya...
menyimpul kekalutan pelakunya...
menyingkap kekhilafan pelakonnya...
di atas pentas yang fana...

dan demi masa...
fana manusia tidaklah memberi akibat...
kerana masa penutupnya sangkakala israfil...
tatkala bumi jatuh berkepingan...

dan demi masa...
yang berdetik setiap ketika...
aku menunggu dengan setia...
melangkah dengan rela...
hingga masaku tiba...
kembali pada yang esa...
nyataku menjadi rahsia...

masa... kaulah penyimpan rahsia... aku dan dunia...

write or not

there are a lot of things...
the wheel of time also moving faster...
the clash n crash of ideas are tremendous...
the sparks of emotions resulted are unbearable...
principles tested, changed, overthrown, created, modified...
surrounding evolved, people developed, souls and spirit enlighten...
the outer and inner self weathered through debates, struggles and battles...

however...
when i touch the keyboard, mu hands shaking...
when i touch the button, my fingers cracking...
my heart beating faster and my brain ache...
keeping all the secrets of life alone seems too much....
revealing all the puzzles that i found seems too little...
so there i am... STUCK!!!

is this the results of a complex inferiority...
or as results of life long pessimism?

i myself could not figure it out for now...
since my mind and my souls always in huge argument...
my mind with it cautious step always keep me away from sharing...
but still there a small compartment who shout to be heard...
my souls with it overwhelming emotion always restraint me from sharing...
but still there a small room who beg to be unleashed...

clock keep ticking... but still im only manage to write the outer-most layer of the story...
sun is sinking... but still the path to the depth of mind and heart barricaded...

well lets see... n think... n guessing...

SHOULD I WRITE OR NOT???