write or not

there are a lot of things...
the wheel of time also moving faster...
the clash n crash of ideas are tremendous...
the sparks of emotions resulted are unbearable...
principles tested, changed, overthrown, created, modified...
surrounding evolved, people developed, souls and spirit enlighten...
the outer and inner self weathered through debates, struggles and battles...

however...
when i touch the keyboard, mu hands shaking...
when i touch the button, my fingers cracking...
my heart beating faster and my brain ache...
keeping all the secrets of life alone seems too much....
revealing all the puzzles that i found seems too little...
so there i am... STUCK!!!

is this the results of a complex inferiority...
or as results of life long pessimism?

i myself could not figure it out for now...
since my mind and my souls always in huge argument...
my mind with it cautious step always keep me away from sharing...
but still there a small compartment who shout to be heard...
my souls with it overwhelming emotion always restraint me from sharing...
but still there a small room who beg to be unleashed...

clock keep ticking... but still im only manage to write the outer-most layer of the story...
sun is sinking... but still the path to the depth of mind and heart barricaded...

well lets see... n think... n guessing...

SHOULD I WRITE OR NOT???